Monday, November 03, 2008
i fought with him again. and there were a lot of fucks(on my side) and tears(on my side, okay not a lot, but it was intensive tearing for quite a few minutes) and crazy talk(yep still on my side) and shit damn, i fucking hate this!
he said i should really stop saying fuck, cause it doesnt make things better. but don't u see baby, if i was able to behave exactly in the ways that would make things better, i wouldnt have told you all those shit or felt that lousy way or did anything to sabotage our shortlived happy days.
wtf, quarreling twice in two days. this is so not what i wanted.
and yet i caused it. i bloody took this all upon myself. just slap me, damn damn damn.
this blog's seeing a lot of personal talk from me, but i don't really care really anymore.
if there are any girlfriends out there who are constantly still feeling insecure about every damn thing and every damn girl, please say aye. i need to know i'm not alone, that even if i'm the problematic one, i'm not the ONLY one. and that he can't go running to some other girl cause she's probably going to do the same thing to him anyway.
insecurity breeds. and it kills relationships, and friendships.
fuck insecurity.
he said i should really stop saying fuck, cause it doesnt make things better. but don't u see baby, if i was able to behave exactly in the ways that would make things better, i wouldnt have told you all those shit or felt that lousy way or did anything to sabotage our shortlived happy days.
wtf, quarreling twice in two days. this is so not what i wanted.
and yet i caused it. i bloody took this all upon myself. just slap me, damn damn damn.
this blog's seeing a lot of personal talk from me, but i don't really care really anymore.
if there are any girlfriends out there who are constantly still feeling insecure about every damn thing and every damn girl, please say aye. i need to know i'm not alone, that even if i'm the problematic one, i'm not the ONLY one. and that he can't go running to some other girl cause she's probably going to do the same thing to him anyway.
insecurity breeds. and it kills relationships, and friendships.
fuck insecurity.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 2:26 AM.
