Tuesday, June 24, 2008
after a bawling session today, i feel much better.
thanks babu and elly. :) -hugs.
thanks babu and elly. :) -hugs.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 1:33 AM.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
what the fuck is wrong with me. yes the 'fuck' is warranted, at least to me in this case.
damn. i shouldn't be reacting this way, shouldn't be feeling all this boiling rage in me, shouldnt let every fucking insignificant thing get to me.
i never knew i was going to turn out like that. i don't like it one bit. and i bloody hell can't do anything to change. i've tried to stop thinking about it, but that doesn't stop me from goggling stuffs and discovering photos i really don't want to see. have tried to just reassure myself that there is really nothing, but i know that is not the issue that is bothering the hell out of me.
so why the fuck am i like that. is it going to be like this everytime, forever.
fuck.
damn. i shouldn't be reacting this way, shouldn't be feeling all this boiling rage in me, shouldnt let every fucking insignificant thing get to me.
i never knew i was going to turn out like that. i don't like it one bit. and i bloody hell can't do anything to change. i've tried to stop thinking about it, but that doesn't stop me from goggling stuffs and discovering photos i really don't want to see. have tried to just reassure myself that there is really nothing, but i know that is not the issue that is bothering the hell out of me.
so why the fuck am i like that. is it going to be like this everytime, forever.
fuck.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 1:44 AM.
Friday, June 13, 2008
that one minute of fame on the small screen. teeheehee.
whee, cheap thrill.
Shall backtrack a bit to my bestie's birthday bash!
quite a handful of people messaged me to inform me about it, apparently EVERYONE watches the news. haha.
whee, cheap thrill.
Shall backtrack a bit to my bestie's birthday bash!
21 year old miss lee yiqiao! i can so see us one day many many years later, at ntuc together, two frumpy aunties fussing over which apples have dents and redeeming cut-out coupons at the counter. hmmm, actually not that we don't do it now also hor? HMMMMM. hahha shit.
All the same, I know this is cliche but I wish for your happiness (family, teaching, love) from the deepest deepest depths of my heart. ahha. :)
fourg girls.
awww, so cute!! both. haha. :)
awww, so cute!! both. haha. :)
Creamy, or rather more affectionately called mimi is qiao's other darling. And she is the answer to the question I always ask myself when I see di's Shihtzus, "Hmmmm, what if she cuts their hair?"
See di! Short hair is cute too wad. Hehhh. but the shaggy gigi and rover are cute too also k. haven't seen them in a long while.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 1:31 AM.
Monday, June 09, 2008
it's 1.20AM, Sunday night.
and somehow there is this slight uneasiness within me, maybe because I know that for this coming week, I've got 2 days in coffee club, and 4 at the IT fair. and I'm such an IT goon.
I totally need tuition from the boy to tell me what is the RAM for, what is the difference between Intel Core 1 and 2 etc etc. and I was kinda counting on this weekend to get that down pat, but this weekend just flew past in a jiffy!
Just now we spent our Sunday at qiao's birthday celebration. And we had a really heartwarming conversation after that when I called her at 12 to wish her happy birthday. It's been a long time since we talked that long, and im really glad that I can (and will!) be there for you, qiao. I've never been a hugger kind of girl, but I've started to experience the emotions they bring that no words can ever stir up. happy birthday dearest bestie. :)
About work at Coffee Club, so far it's been a breeze.
NOT. hahaha. okay, that's quite a sad joke to make. Anyway, I'm still having lots of problems with beverage and food setting! And I've seen more than my share of black faces when I ask already-busy colleagues (especially this one moody zharbor. grr.) about whether should I put the giant black straw, or should I include a jug of warm milk. blah blahh. Damn, why am I not a coffee-drinker!
And the rush hour periods are hectic hectic hectic! Actually hectic is fine, it is when it starts to get really messy that you start to panic. Like, when you've got a lady at the front desk waiting to make her reservation, plates of food to be served at the kitchen, group of teenagers waving for the bill and man beckoning you to take his order. ALL AT THE SAME TIME. and add this to the fact that I still can't get my setting right (refer to top), which makes everything that much slower. SIGHHH.
but i love it when that moody bitch isn't there though. That day, I worked an 11 hour-shift, and she had an off day, and it was an ABSOLUTELY perfect day. It seems like I always tend to screw up more often in front of her, and then her black face just screws me up even more, so on and forth. Vicious cycle indeed. The other colleagues are really great people to work with, funny and helpful. It's just her.
But I shouldn't make that become my problem hur.
I just hope I really absorb all that information at IT fair training tomorrow, and NOT conveniently throw out all the coffeeclub knowledge.
and somehow there is this slight uneasiness within me, maybe because I know that for this coming week, I've got 2 days in coffee club, and 4 at the IT fair. and I'm such an IT goon.
I totally need tuition from the boy to tell me what is the RAM for, what is the difference between Intel Core 1 and 2 etc etc. and I was kinda counting on this weekend to get that down pat, but this weekend just flew past in a jiffy!
Just now we spent our Sunday at qiao's birthday celebration. And we had a really heartwarming conversation after that when I called her at 12 to wish her happy birthday. It's been a long time since we talked that long, and im really glad that I can (and will!) be there for you, qiao. I've never been a hugger kind of girl, but I've started to experience the emotions they bring that no words can ever stir up. happy birthday dearest bestie. :)
About work at Coffee Club, so far it's been a breeze.
NOT. hahaha. okay, that's quite a sad joke to make. Anyway, I'm still having lots of problems with beverage and food setting! And I've seen more than my share of black faces when I ask already-busy colleagues (especially this one moody zharbor. grr.) about whether should I put the giant black straw, or should I include a jug of warm milk. blah blahh. Damn, why am I not a coffee-drinker!
And the rush hour periods are hectic hectic hectic! Actually hectic is fine, it is when it starts to get really messy that you start to panic. Like, when you've got a lady at the front desk waiting to make her reservation, plates of food to be served at the kitchen, group of teenagers waving for the bill and man beckoning you to take his order. ALL AT THE SAME TIME. and add this to the fact that I still can't get my setting right (refer to top), which makes everything that much slower. SIGHHH.
but i love it when that moody bitch isn't there though. That day, I worked an 11 hour-shift, and she had an off day, and it was an ABSOLUTELY perfect day. It seems like I always tend to screw up more often in front of her, and then her black face just screws me up even more, so on and forth. Vicious cycle indeed. The other colleagues are really great people to work with, funny and helpful. It's just her.
But I shouldn't make that become my problem hur.
I just hope I really absorb all that information at IT fair training tomorrow, and NOT conveniently throw out all the coffeeclub knowledge.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 1:20 AM.
