it's very weird.
i've realised, in my life. i CANNOT work for anything. as in, I CANNOT want to do something. because from previous experiences, it feels like the more I want/work for something, the more likely nothing will happen, or something will crop up and it'll be a flop.
quite a few times already.
bah. this sucks though.
           
           can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 11:01 PM.