Sunday, April 27, 2008
i've started to be afraid of the moment i close my eyes, till i finally get out of bed.
these few nights, all my dreams have been tension-filled adventure chases, mentally draining hours.
I can't believe I thought my exams started on Thursday, when it's Wed. eeks. I've still got wad, 15 chapters to study in 2 and a half days? hoorayyyy. heading to macs with dear, john and michael later. self-invited myself. wahaha.
these few nights, all my dreams have been tension-filled adventure chases, mentally draining hours.
I can't believe I thought my exams started on Thursday, when it's Wed. eeks. I've still got wad, 15 chapters to study in 2 and a half days? hoorayyyy. heading to macs with dear, john and michael later. self-invited myself. wahaha.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 3:03 PM.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Yes yes, as SOMEONE has reminded me, there is one post that is WAYYY overdue.
and so here it is, BIRTHDAY PRESENTS from so many santas! :)
Let's go in chronological order.
my secondary school class, 3/4G!!
The girls have really pitched in much. :)
Wes! too bad your girlfriend couldn't make it :(. BUT ANYWAY, i think this furball is darn cute. Mushabelly somemore! how amusing. heeee. and i get your good intentions about making me remember my kiddy side despite turning 21. DONT WORRY, i'm all about kiddy! thanks man. :)
To Fee and Jason! thanks a lot of coming down to the party k!! and i hoped you guys found the mini mahjong set amusing. wahaha. quite a laugh righttt?? although i know wes and jason, those serious mahjong-ers wouldn't see the fun. hee. thank you for the vouchers!! :)
Fuzzy, Weichun, Wanting, Cheryl, Audrey, Mabel!!
I had the most fun unwrapping your presents. :) I had no idea there was more than a bag!! and it was like, wow there's a envelope with a hot pink underwear, WOAH still got handwritten letter, PHWOAHH still got still got gold box with darn pretty charm!! :) THANK YOU. i loved each and every one of them, and each and everyone of you. Some of you, I haven't got to meet for quite some time. :( but the holidays are soonn! and then there will be lots of catching up. :) Loves.
Ele, Christine, John!
Do you all know your present reached me the stroke i turned 21! :) the photograph with the special glittery effect and the frame is sucha sweet present really. and everytime i look at it, i get reminded of all the rockin' good times we spent together. sighh, i miss them! :( but of course, there are more to come, RIGHHTTTT.
oh, and the cards!! (BOO JOHN YOU HAVE NO CARD. hahha, okay but you made up for that by drawing on the box) such creativity, such colours, so much love emanating from them. lovelovelove.
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And then, there's the family. :)
My cousins + brother + Angeline. YOU ALL ARRR. ehh very touching leh, a bunch of guys (all different age group, from 17 to 23) and a girl shopping for my presents! can't imagine really. Just knowing that all of you got together for me would have been good enough. but noooo, you had to buy extremely expensive presents. The Swarovski crystal necklace, and the Royce chocolates (although I bet Randy made you all buy them so he could eat too. whaha). I LOVE YOU ALL. plus, it was just superb quality time spent with all of you at the chalet, you all crack me up loads!
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My three lovelies - Diana, Rosalinda, Mabel
penning off now, a very blessed me.
and so here it is, BIRTHDAY PRESENTS from so many santas! :)
Let's go in chronological order.
my secondary school class, 3/4G!!
The girls have really pitched in much. :)
They've gone really branded, Guess and Baby-G sia. You girls spoil me too much. (actually its Yiqiao, the sole bearer of the presents-buying. :) thank you bestie) Now I've got a rock-inspired red wallet to replace my sadly-burnt Billabong one. and a BabyG watch to boot!! I haven't had worn a watch ever since I stepped out of River Valley High! But I'll start soon, with such a pretty grey-pink one. :) -HUGS to all the 3/4G girls (too many to name! :)) who split with their moolah.
the boys! marco, kenny, songlip
it's hard to go wrong with Bodyshop items, seriously. :) and such a lovely card too. (although I spotted you guys still penning in your well wishes outside the chalet, and I saw through that peeing in the bushes joke lar hur. :P) I'll put that candle-burner to good use one day, :). THANK YOUUUUU ALLL.
the boys! zhibin, qiling
sighh, the flowers have wilted by the time I managed to get hold of a camera. But still, I appreciate the efforts. You guys do know the way to a girl's heart hur. with flowers and book vouchers. :) also, qiling thanks for heading down from the west to the east, even though u knew everyone from the class had left. (although I know its partly coz you wanted to see someone else lar. ahem ahem..) haha. THANK YOU TWO.
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And then, it's the National JC bunch!
Firstly, Youyi!! you totally caught me off guard with this thin tube when you whipped it out! haha, innocent me couldn't figure out what it was until you enlighted me that it's a cigar. All the way from Thailand. :) thanks man.
This is from the entire class. I know you guys have always tended to get me accessories for birthdays, but you all have outdone yourselves this time. The necklace is DARN pretty, and I mean it from the bottom of my heart k. (of course, shitter SHIQIN!! thank you for choosing and buying it! -hugs) And to those who managed to write their birthday notes to me (including shingkae) thanks a bunchh!! MUACKSSS my entire class.
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hmm, university next!! NATIONAL UNIVERSITY OF SINGAPORE.
Wes! too bad your girlfriend couldn't make it :(. BUT ANYWAY, i think this furball is darn cute. Mushabelly somemore! how amusing. heeee. and i get your good intentions about making me remember my kiddy side despite turning 21. DONT WORRY, i'm all about kiddy! thanks man. :)
To Fee and Jason! thanks a lot of coming down to the party k!! and i hoped you guys found the mini mahjong set amusing. wahaha. quite a laugh righttt?? although i know wes and jason, those serious mahjong-ers wouldn't see the fun. hee. thank you for the vouchers!! :)
I had the most fun unwrapping your presents. :) I had no idea there was more than a bag!! and it was like, wow there's a envelope with a hot pink underwear, WOAH still got handwritten letter, PHWOAHH still got still got gold box with darn pretty charm!! :) THANK YOU. i loved each and every one of them, and each and everyone of you. Some of you, I haven't got to meet for quite some time. :( but the holidays are soonn! and then there will be lots of catching up. :) Loves.
Ele, Christine, John!
Do you all know your present reached me the stroke i turned 21! :) the photograph with the special glittery effect and the frame is sucha sweet present really. and everytime i look at it, i get reminded of all the rockin' good times we spent together. sighh, i miss them! :( but of course, there are more to come, RIGHHTTTT.
oh, and the cards!! (BOO JOHN YOU HAVE NO CARD. hahha, okay but you made up for that by drawing on the box) such creativity, such colours, so much love emanating from them. lovelovelove.
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And then, there's the family. :)
My cousins + brother + Angeline. YOU ALL ARRR. ehh very touching leh, a bunch of guys (all different age group, from 17 to 23) and a girl shopping for my presents! can't imagine really. Just knowing that all of you got together for me would have been good enough. but noooo, you had to buy extremely expensive presents. The Swarovski crystal necklace, and the Royce chocolates (although I bet Randy made you all buy them so he could eat too. whaha). I LOVE YOU ALL. plus, it was just superb quality time spent with all of you at the chalet, you all crack me up loads!
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My three lovelies - Diana, Rosalinda, Mabel
The theme was 'larger-than-life', or so I've been told. Ehh damn wacky lar, the passport which meant my passport to freedom, how apt. and the cute bottle of peanut-filled marshmallows, AND THAT HUGE ASS poster of me made up of tiny 2D memories of all 4 of us. awwww. :) And have I mentioned the durian cake and durian roll! YUMMMM. Nothing beats knowing someone loves you enough to take note of what you really like. I love every bit of the presents. They made me a very happy girl that day. :) I know all of you have been really busy with schoolwork, and working on the present must have been taking away a lot of time. so KUDOS. :)
you guys have been there for me every step, and we've been hanging out with each other for so long, that it just gets really natural and comfortable to be around you all. :) I really can see us 4 growing old together.
I love each of YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. -BEAR HUGS.
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My one pillar of support, bestie, shopping partner, relationship advisor
Qiao!! my lovelllyyyyyyyyy girl. you totally took my comment that i like pink seriously, haha. don't play play k, the perfume came all the way from mighty US of A yar. This is the first Victoria Secrets item I have received you know, makes it all that much more special. And now I've got the very same Precious Moments paper bag I gave you a few years ago! :)
and the piece of plastic on the birthday card, I thought it was pretty and all, but only when Jiayang enlightened me that the bits of silver on it was soldering, which was melting of silver bit by bit, that I realised you must have spent a lot a lot of hours on it. The words, and the butterflies. just perfect dear bestie!! :)
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the only specimen of the opposite sex, that I truly love. (in a romantic sense)
Right down to the L.O.V.E bag, and the paperback novel which had a couple holding hands, everything you gave me seemed to emit this VERY fragrant smell of lar-uve. :) There's only so much ways I can express my gratitude towards how you go extremely out of the way to give me a smashing birthday. The digital photo-frame in the cute purple box, came with a really funny surprise carried out in the Genting hotel toilet. And have I told you, I wouldn't want to celebrate the very first moment I stepped into 21 years with anyone else, but you! You, my dear, who ordered an EMICAKE durian cake just for me, and got my family to surprise me in the dark, who spent hours and days and nights meeting up with my side of the social circle, endangering friendships (hahaa) by rushing people for their video footage of well wishes to me, editing the video, creating a lovely photo montage, getting me a book by my favourite author, simply put, making everything so much more special.
You have been the tausah in my tausah pau, the meatball in my yongtaufoo, the chocolate wafer biscuit in my cake. (yes yes, I can only think of food analogies. haha) You have given me so much, made me all that more blessed.
and I know I've been wearing this phrase out, but know that I mean it with my heart and soul everytime I say it. I love you.
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penning off now, a very blessed me.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 6:06 PM.
Sunday morning.
yesterday night was the most drama of all nights i've ever spent in my entire life.
when we finally stepped onto the bus-stop after finishing our ushering work for the night, i was in the midst of taking off my earrings that i had the horrible realisation that my gold necklace had slipped onto my neck and the gold, diamond encrusted pendant was missing! the necklace and pendant was a gift from my grandma, and it was only the first time i was wearing it yesterday. (i found it too tacky to go with anything, except all black, which i had to don on for ushering duty)
me and dear started to comb the streets and roads, which actually had quite a heavy stream of cars driving straight towards us every once in a while, which made looking for that small little thing pretty hard. i never knew that there were so many things that glittered in the dark, in the grass there were little slips of plastic, on the pavement there were shiny rock mixed with concrete. that, combined with the fact that it was nighttime, and it was a pretty long walk from the theatre to the bus-stop, sucked. dear was lugging around laptop and a heavy bag of clothes and books, and i knew his shoulders and neck were aching like hell, but he didn't complain one bit and just kept bending his tired neck in search for the pendant. (which made me feel even worse when i think back to what i did to him later in the night)
we traced and retraced and re-retraced our steps over and over again. but to no avail. people were staring at us as we walked on the busy roads like it was ours, keeping our head down, and squatted on grass in an attempt to see clearer.
i know this sounds damn corny, but it was with a heavy heart that i finally stepped onto the bus to head back home.
and then another drama started, with me getting pissed (i have got to do something about my pettiness and horrid temper) at dear for trivial matters, and ending in me stomping up a bus, with tears-filled eyes as dear shouted at me to come back. and i stupidly stupidly stupidly (i cant say this enough) ignored him, and stared straight ahead stubbornly when i was finally seated in the bus, although i know he was outside, waiting for me to look at him.
I picked up his call after missing two of them, and he gave me a scolding that i totally deserved, before hanging up on me. and so began my long stream of calls that were not to be picked up, and 'im sorry dear' smses that were not to be replied to, and him answering and hanging up before i could say a word, to make it clear to me he was darn bent on not talking to me.
and i totally deserved that.
and that thought just kept haunting me throughout the entire ride from Outram to Jurong East, and everytime the train stopped and opened its doors at a train station, my heart kept telling me to get out of the train and board the one opposite, to tanah merah. but my tired legs kept saying it's okay, i should just head to his house tomorrow morning, and that it was already almost midnight, and i sure wouldn't catch any last train back if i decided to get out of this train i was in.
and this tirade of thoughts just kept flooding me, and i was mentally exhausted with a pounding headache, by the time i reached Jurong East, one stop away from my home. and it was then i listened to my heart.
and got off the train, into the last train bound for tanah merah.
as the headache continued to torture me as i sat on the rather empty train, with thoughts of what i would say to him running through my head, the missing pendant suddenly popped into my already-very overloaded mind. and i had that rare stroke of genius and i decided to check if the pendant dropped in the fold of my pants, which i had folded up because it was too long.
and tadah, it was there. lying there untouched, and i was in utter disbelief when i picked it up, still shining brilliantly, and i was shocked with the realisation that the whole time me and dear had been risking our lives looking for it in gutters and on roads, it had been so close beside me through-out.
and so, after what seemed like an eternity (actually forty minutes) i finally reached tanah merah. And i climbed over and jumped down the fence i thought i never would, and leapt across a pretty wide drain, because i wanted so badly to see him.
so when one of his neighbours opened the gate, i waited near the lift, and when he appeared, i fell into his arms crying like a baby, apologising over and over again.
and by 2.30 am when i reached my house gate, finally, all was well.
yesterday night was the most drama of all nights i've ever spent in my entire life.
when we finally stepped onto the bus-stop after finishing our ushering work for the night, i was in the midst of taking off my earrings that i had the horrible realisation that my gold necklace had slipped onto my neck and the gold, diamond encrusted pendant was missing! the necklace and pendant was a gift from my grandma, and it was only the first time i was wearing it yesterday. (i found it too tacky to go with anything, except all black, which i had to don on for ushering duty)
me and dear started to comb the streets and roads, which actually had quite a heavy stream of cars driving straight towards us every once in a while, which made looking for that small little thing pretty hard. i never knew that there were so many things that glittered in the dark, in the grass there were little slips of plastic, on the pavement there were shiny rock mixed with concrete. that, combined with the fact that it was nighttime, and it was a pretty long walk from the theatre to the bus-stop, sucked. dear was lugging around laptop and a heavy bag of clothes and books, and i knew his shoulders and neck were aching like hell, but he didn't complain one bit and just kept bending his tired neck in search for the pendant. (which made me feel even worse when i think back to what i did to him later in the night)
we traced and retraced and re-retraced our steps over and over again. but to no avail. people were staring at us as we walked on the busy roads like it was ours, keeping our head down, and squatted on grass in an attempt to see clearer.
i know this sounds damn corny, but it was with a heavy heart that i finally stepped onto the bus to head back home.
and then another drama started, with me getting pissed (i have got to do something about my pettiness and horrid temper) at dear for trivial matters, and ending in me stomping up a bus, with tears-filled eyes as dear shouted at me to come back. and i stupidly stupidly stupidly (i cant say this enough) ignored him, and stared straight ahead stubbornly when i was finally seated in the bus, although i know he was outside, waiting for me to look at him.
I picked up his call after missing two of them, and he gave me a scolding that i totally deserved, before hanging up on me. and so began my long stream of calls that were not to be picked up, and 'im sorry dear' smses that were not to be replied to, and him answering and hanging up before i could say a word, to make it clear to me he was darn bent on not talking to me.
and i totally deserved that.
and that thought just kept haunting me throughout the entire ride from Outram to Jurong East, and everytime the train stopped and opened its doors at a train station, my heart kept telling me to get out of the train and board the one opposite, to tanah merah. but my tired legs kept saying it's okay, i should just head to his house tomorrow morning, and that it was already almost midnight, and i sure wouldn't catch any last train back if i decided to get out of this train i was in.
and this tirade of thoughts just kept flooding me, and i was mentally exhausted with a pounding headache, by the time i reached Jurong East, one stop away from my home. and it was then i listened to my heart.
and got off the train, into the last train bound for tanah merah.
as the headache continued to torture me as i sat on the rather empty train, with thoughts of what i would say to him running through my head, the missing pendant suddenly popped into my already-very overloaded mind. and i had that rare stroke of genius and i decided to check if the pendant dropped in the fold of my pants, which i had folded up because it was too long.
and tadah, it was there. lying there untouched, and i was in utter disbelief when i picked it up, still shining brilliantly, and i was shocked with the realisation that the whole time me and dear had been risking our lives looking for it in gutters and on roads, it had been so close beside me through-out.
and so, after what seemed like an eternity (actually forty minutes) i finally reached tanah merah. And i climbed over and jumped down the fence i thought i never would, and leapt across a pretty wide drain, because i wanted so badly to see him.
so when one of his neighbours opened the gate, i waited near the lift, and when he appeared, i fell into his arms crying like a baby, apologising over and over again.
and by 2.30 am when i reached my house gate, finally, all was well.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 2:18 PM.
