Monday, July 02, 2007
this is my first night back, and i'm just sitting in my living room, family all tucked in bed already. and i'm missing london.
it's weird, i've been kinda wishing to go home to mixedvegrice and singlish when i was over at london. but now, i really don't mind being back there. after twenty odd days straight of seeing malcolm, wenli, tony, and especially diana every waking moment, i do feel this pang of loss.
the twenty odd days have been a hell of a rollercoaster ride, fights tears robbers racistbastards bargains nicebrits groceryshopping, all of that happened over the weeks.
i wish there really was a double timespace dimension thing, so that i can just pop in and out into singapore and london life as and when i feel like it. i'm just so wanting to have my cake and eat it too right now.
man, the moments in the plane and airport are whizzing past in my mind, arriving and seeing mab ros (who got us the cutest presents. :) ) my family at the arrival window, nonstopchatter with di on the plane, the air stewardesses with attitudes as fake as their faces, the long delay, the java chip choc di treated me to (at the last count, she's treated me that drink, 2 bags of macadamia nuts, angmoh carrot cake, millie's cookie, a whole lot of meals and so much more. THANKYOUONCEAGAINBABU.)
it's like someone's pressed the rewind button and i'm reliving everything in super fast forward mode in reverse order.
i think what i'm feeling now is s-a-d.
maybe it's the overdose of taiwan shows, and suddenly realising that i'll have all the time to watch it now. and then suddenly i don't miss seeing jackywu so much anymore.
or maybe it was me filling myself with happy thoughts of my family going to the market tomorrow and grabbing some singaporean breakfast, until it hit me that my dad probably has to work.
reality is a real bummer.
BAHH.
byebye wimbledon. byebye days of leaving NUS and modulebidding farfarbehind, and days packed with daily meetings of how to have fun. HELLO singapore. :) hello home.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 3:04 AM.
