Monday, September 18, 2006
the hardest part is over.
and the deal was called off. "okay on! dont cry!" but how could we not.
like ros said, its all very unpredictable. we could all be damn happy all the way, from checking in luggage, to taking photos. but WHEN the departure gate looms, and all there's left is to say goodbye. there's really no other way, but to cry.
i really didnt wanna give her jacket back.
And when I saw Di suddenly turning away, with her dad already passing the guards. I suddenly realised i still had so much to say, and one last hug to give. so me, mab, ros all rushed to her. and there she was, all trembling as she heaved sob after sob. my poor babusengg! :( All of us just kinda surrounded her, and i was patting her head while crying like mad myself too.
Finally, she had to go in. I couldnt speak at all. Even the word 'bye', it was impossible to speak, a huge lump in my throat. but it didnt matter. words didnt matter. before long, she was gone. out of sight. but NEVER EVER out of mind.
Crying fest ensued. Ros, mab, shiqin all started sobbing and i couldnt stop too.
I suddenly remember what mab wrote in her sms "seeing you walk away was really heartbreaking." Oh my. that is SO sad.
At the foodcourt, my tears were slowly ebbing, until i felt my phone vibrate.
"I love you babuseng."
A fresh barrage of tears.
you should be on the plane to Bangkok now. I hope all the letters aren't overwhelming you with emotion, and seriously, it just broke my heart to see you standing there crying. (okay im pretty surprised im crying AGAIN. i thought my tears were like all used up.)
your brother's promised me to get you back here in December. Now that's one promise i really dont want broken.
Be happy, babuseng, be safe.
ilu.
and the deal was called off. "okay on! dont cry!" but how could we not.
like ros said, its all very unpredictable. we could all be damn happy all the way, from checking in luggage, to taking photos. but WHEN the departure gate looms, and all there's left is to say goodbye. there's really no other way, but to cry.
i really didnt wanna give her jacket back.
And when I saw Di suddenly turning away, with her dad already passing the guards. I suddenly realised i still had so much to say, and one last hug to give. so me, mab, ros all rushed to her. and there she was, all trembling as she heaved sob after sob. my poor babusengg! :( All of us just kinda surrounded her, and i was patting her head while crying like mad myself too.
Finally, she had to go in. I couldnt speak at all. Even the word 'bye', it was impossible to speak, a huge lump in my throat. but it didnt matter. words didnt matter. before long, she was gone. out of sight. but NEVER EVER out of mind.
Crying fest ensued. Ros, mab, shiqin all started sobbing and i couldnt stop too.
I suddenly remember what mab wrote in her sms "seeing you walk away was really heartbreaking." Oh my. that is SO sad.
At the foodcourt, my tears were slowly ebbing, until i felt my phone vibrate.
"I love you babuseng."
A fresh barrage of tears.
you should be on the plane to Bangkok now. I hope all the letters aren't overwhelming you with emotion, and seriously, it just broke my heart to see you standing there crying. (okay im pretty surprised im crying AGAIN. i thought my tears were like all used up.)
your brother's promised me to get you back here in December. Now that's one promise i really dont want broken.
Be happy, babuseng, be safe.
ilu.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 11:16 PM.
