Friday, May 26, 2006
here i am at work. This is the first time actually, that im working all by myself. The last 2 times were either with Diana, or Yiqiao. Its been going okayy so far. no major screw-ups, blue moods and all. but it does get a tad lonely sometimes.
why do we lose all that willingness to pei people everywhere when we grow up?
just now the aunty was saying she wanted to go get the mail and for us to go up first. The mailbox was just beside us! If it was back in the college days, and the aunty was another school girl, we would have been like, "dont be silly!" and wait for her, chattering nineteen to the dozens. but its all changed. my colleague nodded and we then went up in the lift. I guess my colleagues are considered friendly. but that's only because we're no longer talking schoolfriends-friendly. at work, in society, its all that polite friendliness. nobody seems willing to let anyone into their comfort zone. what's up with that! i know we all dont have a history together, but we could jolly well make something out of the few months we're going to spend together.
maybe its the age gap.
this is depressing.
something cheerful? Great Singapore Sale? Well, according to err shiqin, Triumph's on major sale. hahaha, so for b-less or b-needing girls, note that down.
like i was telling yen and shiqin and mab, i cant stand the thought of being enclosed in an office every weekday of my life for the next ten years or so after university. already, i can barely bear the thought that ill be in this office for the next two months. it is sounding very very long. of course, it certainly doesn't help that university starts about 2 weeks after. -crumples and dies.
so ill be a zookeeper.
i have been following the flight of every bird flying past my window on the 13th floor. my sole way of recapturing and feeling the presence of freedom, in those little birds. many towering office buildings surround the one im at, and i imagine all the working people trapped inside, doing meaningless stuffs, feeling meaningless emotions. i look at all those office people hustling and bustling in the kopitiam, and i feel uncontrollably sad.
somehow ill end up like them.
why do we lose all that willingness to pei people everywhere when we grow up?
just now the aunty was saying she wanted to go get the mail and for us to go up first. The mailbox was just beside us! If it was back in the college days, and the aunty was another school girl, we would have been like, "dont be silly!" and wait for her, chattering nineteen to the dozens. but its all changed. my colleague nodded and we then went up in the lift. I guess my colleagues are considered friendly. but that's only because we're no longer talking schoolfriends-friendly. at work, in society, its all that polite friendliness. nobody seems willing to let anyone into their comfort zone. what's up with that! i know we all dont have a history together, but we could jolly well make something out of the few months we're going to spend together.
maybe its the age gap.
this is depressing.
something cheerful? Great Singapore Sale? Well, according to err shiqin, Triumph's on major sale. hahaha, so for b-less or b-needing girls, note that down.
like i was telling yen and shiqin and mab, i cant stand the thought of being enclosed in an office every weekday of my life for the next ten years or so after university. already, i can barely bear the thought that ill be in this office for the next two months. it is sounding very very long. of course, it certainly doesn't help that university starts about 2 weeks after. -crumples and dies.
so ill be a zookeeper.
i have been following the flight of every bird flying past my window on the 13th floor. my sole way of recapturing and feeling the presence of freedom, in those little birds. many towering office buildings surround the one im at, and i imagine all the working people trapped inside, doing meaningless stuffs, feeling meaningless emotions. i look at all those office people hustling and bustling in the kopitiam, and i feel uncontrollably sad.
somehow ill end up like them.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 3:03 PM.
