Tuesday, December 20, 2005
i hope the error thing disappears.
today was soooo weird!! totally didnt have plans, until i went online and suddenly i was headed to this stranger's house to help paint the walls. okayy. so there's some connection. like he's taiyi's boyfriend. but stilll. i dont even know him, nor his 'brothers'. but despite all my fears about smoke and curses and all that, they're friendly and nice and all. smoke = beng = bad? not anymore. they were totally cute with the kid toddler, much cuter than me. bleahhh. im such a child-hater. or at least i appear to be. maybe its the kid's problem in this case. she totally did not smile once through out the whole time! not even at grace, who should be her favourite jie jie.
everyone's fretting about jobs, and really eager about them. except for ninny-joce, scared of everything plus reality. shit. i want lasic so bad. maybe marsell's wrong, maybe i dont have scars on my eye. i need to move my ass to some lasic specialist centre!! girl, do something about anything!! gosh.
today really opened my eyes. being around with ros, di, mab so much, has been lovely, but really, ive been too enclosed in my own world. in my own singles-only-and-couples-do-gross-things world. and shunning away from guys, except class guys maybe. ive got to stop clamming up. i dont want to have to go to some dating agency to get married, in ten years time. dreaded blind dates might very well be my future if i dont change!!
i learn so much about myself every moment, but hardly any is good.
today was soooo weird!! totally didnt have plans, until i went online and suddenly i was headed to this stranger's house to help paint the walls. okayy. so there's some connection. like he's taiyi's boyfriend. but stilll. i dont even know him, nor his 'brothers'. but despite all my fears about smoke and curses and all that, they're friendly and nice and all. smoke = beng = bad? not anymore. they were totally cute with the kid toddler, much cuter than me. bleahhh. im such a child-hater. or at least i appear to be. maybe its the kid's problem in this case. she totally did not smile once through out the whole time! not even at grace, who should be her favourite jie jie.
everyone's fretting about jobs, and really eager about them. except for ninny-joce, scared of everything plus reality. shit. i want lasic so bad. maybe marsell's wrong, maybe i dont have scars on my eye. i need to move my ass to some lasic specialist centre!! girl, do something about anything!! gosh.
today really opened my eyes. being around with ros, di, mab so much, has been lovely, but really, ive been too enclosed in my own world. in my own singles-only-and-couples-do-gross-things world. and shunning away from guys, except class guys maybe. ive got to stop clamming up. i dont want to have to go to some dating agency to get married, in ten years time. dreaded blind dates might very well be my future if i dont change!!
i learn so much about myself every moment, but hardly any is good.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 4:14 AM.
