Monday, November 28, 2005
its a sad sad world.
people skin cute furry animals like rabbits for meat.
the one who has fun has no sensitivity too.
so right. speaks for me, you.
it was really creepy when i entered that dark dark canal-road with di. fear snatches at your heart, and it makes me want to walk so fast, but cant because i cant see in front of me. i dont know if the road's really one, or a deep hole lurks in front. awful feeling that was.
thankfully we emerged, helped along solely by di's handphone light.
it was an escapade from di's house to have sushi.
pretty weird. pretty exciting too.
that book's got me all thinking about death.
and it happened. maybe you shouldnt read this, di.
ahni seriously freaked me out when she said, "snowy mati! .. snowy mati." along with strings of malay i didnt understand. but i caught the word 'mati' over and over again. i knew what that meant. and wild thoughts just flashed. it's cruel but i cant deny i felt slightly better when i realised she meant snowy. not because it WAS snowy you know, but because it WASNT others. all wet from sitting in the pool. just a moment ago, we were still happily chitchatting, swinging our legs in the poolwater. i cant believe i used to think that death knocked on the door. now i know. it rushes in and grabs you by the collar. no knocking, no waiting of acceptance. you just had to accept it as it turns your world upside down, inside out. i am glad heaven was invented. it gives grievers a great deal of comfort.
the book made me so scared. if my loved ones should be taken away from me.
what a sad sad entry. fitting for the sad sad world.
people skin cute furry animals like rabbits for meat.
the one who has fun has no sensitivity too.
so right. speaks for me, you.
it was really creepy when i entered that dark dark canal-road with di. fear snatches at your heart, and it makes me want to walk so fast, but cant because i cant see in front of me. i dont know if the road's really one, or a deep hole lurks in front. awful feeling that was.
thankfully we emerged, helped along solely by di's handphone light.
it was an escapade from di's house to have sushi.
pretty weird. pretty exciting too.
that book's got me all thinking about death.
and it happened. maybe you shouldnt read this, di.
ahni seriously freaked me out when she said, "snowy mati! .. snowy mati." along with strings of malay i didnt understand. but i caught the word 'mati' over and over again. i knew what that meant. and wild thoughts just flashed. it's cruel but i cant deny i felt slightly better when i realised she meant snowy. not because it WAS snowy you know, but because it WASNT others. all wet from sitting in the pool. just a moment ago, we were still happily chitchatting, swinging our legs in the poolwater. i cant believe i used to think that death knocked on the door. now i know. it rushes in and grabs you by the collar. no knocking, no waiting of acceptance. you just had to accept it as it turns your world upside down, inside out. i am glad heaven was invented. it gives grievers a great deal of comfort.
the book made me so scared. if my loved ones should be taken away from me.
what a sad sad entry. fitting for the sad sad world.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 2:06 AM.
