Friday, September 02, 2005
hello. i have to try facing myself again.
after that whole crying episode.
i shouldnt give in to my own brain. when i let the greyness engulf me, i cant stop. i just sink. lower until i have no more tears to give.
i am able to summon them up so easily. its still as painful though. that doesnt change.
im stupid that way. i can cry all by myself while on a bus. and still think, "at least i can tick yes if a survey ever asks if ive ever cried on public transportations." im a freak.
i can see them again. its goood. i need to see them anyway. get away from me.
stop it.
after that whole crying episode.
i shouldnt give in to my own brain. when i let the greyness engulf me, i cant stop. i just sink. lower until i have no more tears to give.
i am able to summon them up so easily. its still as painful though. that doesnt change.
im stupid that way. i can cry all by myself while on a bus. and still think, "at least i can tick yes if a survey ever asks if ive ever cried on public transportations." im a freak.
i can see them again. its goood. i need to see them anyway. get away from me.
stop it.
can you hear the soft swoosh of the butterflies' wings. 12:30 AM.
